I dunno how many of you out there would say you can't wait to see my next work. But I guess I owe those people, and the people who just wonder what I'm up to, an explanation.
No lyrical submissions in almost two months. That's pretty much since I got to college. And to be honest, I've just been having trouble writing. The only things I've managed to write have been depressing rambling non-poetic self-dialogues that I really only wrote because I needed to try and lay my thoughts out on some things and because I was trying to get some more writing out of me. A warm-up, generally speaking. But it seems like I just can't go anywhere with it.

Fair warning, the rest of this is going to be something like the aforementioned rambling. Feel free to skip it, I just need to get it out of me.

My whole thinking process is screwed up right now. I'm even questioning everything I've been doing for the past two months. I'm barely making any friends, even though I'm trying hard, and as I get to understand people's body language and such (about time, and I'm probably not actually understanding it, or at least I hope I'm not) I'm finding that people I was trying to be friendly with and who I had nice conversations with seem to be deliberately looking away from me when I pass them on the way to class or wherever. I give them friendly smiles and sometimes say hi, but they lock eyes and then immediately look away.
I can't help but think it's because of my issues with people skills. I think I'm smiling, but I never got good at deliberately smiling (stupidstupidstupidstupid) so I don't know. Sometimes I'm just in a daze when I'm walking and I even miss the fact that a few of the people are in fact saying hi to me, and I don't know if that's affecting it. And these people skills, and clearly expressing what I'm feeling, especially through facial expressions rather than other motions, tie heavily into the performance aspect of my intended major. So obviously I need to figure it out, because it affects EVERYTHING. As far as the affect on my major...I'm almost seriously considering giving this major up and taking up just plain writing, or game design or some kind of computer programming. But my parents would be pissed after just spending $35,000 for one year at Belmont.
I'll probably sleep the hopeless feeling off (I even feel a little better just having put it out there) but these are all problems for me regardless how desperate and hopeless I feel about it at any given time, or at best it's a problem that I perceive a problem where one doesn't exist.
At least I'm not failing any classes so far.
But if anyone has suggestions or advice for me (besides "just get out more"; it's not turning out that simple) I'm all ears.

Lolquiz because I'm bored.

Put your name in, and generate slogan after each question. Generator here! [link]

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
Just for the taste of Alex. (>.>;; )

2. What do you want other people to say about you?
Bet you can't eat Alex. (HAHA.)

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
We all adore an Alex. (Lolwut?)

4. How would you answer a booty call?
Did somebody say Alex? (LOL)

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
You need an Alex. (XDDDDDDDDD)

6. To someone you dislike?
Cleans right around the Alex. (Whut, haha)

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
The too-good-to-hurry Alex. (Whut)

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
The lighter way to enjoy Alex. (pakjvw)

9. You're failing a subject, you say...
I feel like Alex tonight. (Hah. Alex doesn't fail subjects.)

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
We're serious about Alex. (HAHA)

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
Builds bonny Alex. (WHUT)

12. Someone told you you're a jerk, you tell them...
Go crack an Alex. (HAHAHA)

13. What are the best words to describe you?
The world's local Alex. (That's me!)

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
Put an Alex in your tank. (XD)

15. Your last words before you die...
Refreshes the Alex other beers cannot reach. (whut)

16. Your message to a special someone..
From our Alex to yours. (D'AWWWWWWWW)

17. Title of this post will be..
Why have cotton when you can have Alex?

Here's where I stand nearly two months after coming to college.

I've made a few friends, mainly my roommate, his girlfriend (yes, he has a girlfriend already; he came home one day on the first week with a girl and was like "hey man, this is my lady-friend", I kid you not), and a couple people I chatted with in the lobby of my dorm. Trying to work on meeting people, and to that end I've stopped playing Guild Wars for a bit. A week? A month? We'll see.

I've discovered that, of the two choirs I'm in, the one which is mandatory for four semesters for vocal music majors (and two for non-vocal music majors) is working on songs tougher than the choir that some people *coughgirlscough* have to audition for. A little saddening, especially when I hear the guy directly behind me in this choir singing an octave down. Thankfully he's quiet. But anyway, the music for both choirs (which for some reason I just twice tried to spell with a Q; it must be getting late) is nice; I haven't encountered any music so far that I would complain about practicing and performing.

I've started self-teaching some guitar. I've got Are You Gonna Be My Girl by JET down already (even if it's rough when I play it), and I'm working on Calling All Skeletons by Alkaline Trio (just slightly more challenging), one of my own pieces (coming along slowly), and whatever other songs I happen to come across that sound easy. (Once you've played guitar for a bit, I've found you come to notice when a particular song is made up of purely barre and power chords. XD)

What else...oh, the mall around here is awesome. Maybe I already said that when I visited before? But it really is. Dave and Busters' is the main reason for that; DDR right next to a bar that serves pink lemonade...*drools* But the rest of the place is cool, there's this kiosk near the food court that lets you record a song on a karaoke track and whoever is manning the kiosk at the time will burn it to a CD for you.
Along the same lines, I've been stocking up on a little manga. No, not the perverted kind, you. I'll likely have a small hoard (not to be confused with the Horde; more on that later) accumulated by my return.

I picked up a trial code for World of Warcraft...
I'm unimpressed. THAT, for $15 a month? I'll just pay my $40 once (four times over, technically...) and play as long as I want, thank you.

Uh, I think that's it. Expect updates monthly-ish, I suppose.

Internet problem is fixed, I got an ethernet cord and hooked it up yesterday. It's beautiful. Virtually no lag whatsoever.
Had my first day of classes today...I completely missed my first one and ended up in a different English 101 than my own and didn't realize until I went to check my schedule again. XD So I'm currently trying to sort things out with that teacher to get things in order, but all else went just fine.
So yeah, I'll be online pretty often unless things get busy (will probably happen eventually, might take a little while).

So I just got to Belmont (college) today, after a 9-hour (not including stopping at a hotel for 7 hours to sleep, from 1am to 8am) drive. =_= Still a little tired, will probably sleep after I post this.
Had fun hanging out with people before I headed out I chilled with for a bit, had pizza and watched the second half of I, Robot that was on TV, then went and saw Ponyo (highly recommended!) with which was all fun.
At college, I signed in and such, went to organize my dorm (my parents unloaded all my items from the boxes before organizing any of them, which slowed it down a bit, but it got done. I'll take some pictures and post them here, maybe tomorrow.
Anyway, the internet here is incredibly slow. I have never had Guild Wars lag as much as it did while I was playing just now. And websites...it took about 10 minutes just to load the deviantART home page when I logged in. Yeesh. But I'll see if I can get an ethernet cord and a wired connection; I have a feeling the wireless router is probably the culprit of my slow loading.

That's all for now. Basically orientation all this coming week, and classes start Wednesday. It's looking exciting so far, but I probably won't be online much. If you know my cell number, call/text me sometime. If you don't, comment here and I'll send it to you.

Here's to a good college experience.

Oh! And also, I'm still doing those features. I'll keep posting until I get 20 people who want features.

If you do get featured you are expected to feature 20 more people. You don't have to feature the person who featured you, but you may.

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